The beauty of isolation

So today has been a really rough day.

A person I used to call a best friend has taken 3 girls from me WHILE knowing I had crushes on them. Today, I found out that he tried to take away a girl I liked for 4 years. I liked this girl awhile ago, but I liked her for 4 years, and I just found this out...it still hurt pretty bad.

Also, a girl from Maryland whom I've talked to everyday for over 5 months straight hasn't talked to me for the passed couple of days. Well, we talked for a couple minutes a few days ago, just long enough for me to say "You didn't call me back", then she said that things were really rough and I asked her why and all that stuff, and then I said "Its just weird that we talk for over 5 months straight and suddenly we miss a couple of days" and she said "I guess". Anyways, tonight she called and she sounded miserable so I said, "You don't sound too happy, why?" and she said "I told you, but you were probably weren't listening since you were so butthurt about us breaking the 5 month streak." Instantly hurt me/pissed me off, so there was silence and I said "So is there anything I can do?" and she said, "You're in California." So I said, "You obviously are mad at me about something, so I'll let you go," and she said "Bye"

One thing I absolutely hate...never push me away. Tell me you don't wanna talk, or anything around there and I'll understand, but don't treat me like shit just because you're not doing so well. I'm here to help, I'm a good friend, if you push me away, you may just ruin that.

So, all this amongst the other normal troubles, depending on how I feel in the morning, I may shut out the world. I don't know why yet, maybe its to clear my head, maybe its because I'm easily irritable right now, all I know is there's a chance I may want to be left alone. Afterall, it'll pass, just like everything else, right?